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And a little more….

16 Sep

Here I am, still climbing, and oh am I getting tired.  I think I am writing this more for myself than for anything else.

I was talking to someone today and I could see how worried she was for us and she had that “I’m so sorry” attitude.  Now, I have no issues with this person and was touched by her sincere concern and caring thoughts for us.  I found it almost amusing though because Jeremy and I don’t really feel that way.  We get frustrated somedays, we get mad once in a great while, and we aren’t sure what’s ahead.  We do know God is in control of this and for the most part, we are just living our life.

Not to say we have arrived, but how did we get to where we have next to no income and are enjoying life and our family without totally freaking out.  Well here’s a couple of stories that might explain it a bit.

Jeremy (dad) was very sick as a child.  One time he had spinal meningitis.  The doctor told his parents IF he survives, he will be a vegetable.  By the way, Jeremy is not a vegetable,  but maybe that’s why he hasn’t eaten any since he recovered, I’ll blame it on the dr.  Knowing him he probably said at roughly 2 years old, “I will not be a vegetable, in fact I will not eat any vegetables, I will have nothing to do with vegetables whatsoever, take that devil”.    He also had some other health issues I can’t remember specifically.  When his family moved and switched doctors, the new doctor looked at Jeremy’s records, looked at a completely normal and healthy boy and said “this can’t be the same child”.  Jeremy has also had multiple sclerosis like symptoms.  If you know him, you would know that he will never say to have it-not as a denial thing, but he will not hold on to THAT.  I’m right there with him.  About 9 years ago he had his first attack.  He had MRI’s taken to show there was a lesion on his brain.  One MRI and 2 doctors appointments is as far as we went with that.  He has had attacks here and there over the past few years.  He has worked through them and worshipped through them. Do you know how hard it is to hold a drum stick when your hand is numb or burning, or “asleep”-you’d never know,  I think he even played extra hard those days.  Take that satan,  no vegetables AND I’m going to worship harder.   He won’t let it “stick”.  After 9 years it has no hold on his body.

What made me start thinking of this, is one year ago we started tests to see what was causing cyclic fevers in Jeremy Alan.  After MANY tests, a few trips to Miami, and trying medicine, he was diagnosed (through dna testing)  with Familial Mediterranean Periodic Fever.  A genetic disease, with no cure.  You have to take a pill every day to prevent damage to your organs.  Every day for the rest of your life period.  Jeremy took the pill for a couple months.  I was given advice from a friend to pray over it.  She had been on something that was to be for life and she was able to get off it.  I thought HOW do you know.  BUT, BUT BUT…..this is genetic BUT, BUT….  A couple of months later I missed a couple days and  after that I couldn’t put him back on it, I knew in my spirit it was over.  That was April.   The fevers came every 16-21 days without fail, except when he was on the meds-it went 40 days.  It’s done, he’s healed.  

All that to say-what’s a few thousand dollars to a God who did all that (and more, those are just the highlights).  We are praying, fasting, getting ourselves and our business ready.  Waiting on God and trying to hear what he has for us and what our next step is.

Romans 4:17-18We call Abraham “father” not because he got God’s attention by living like a saint, but because God made something out of Abraham when he was a nobody. Isn’t that what we’ve always read in Scripture, God saying to Abraham, “I set you up as father of many peoples”? Abraham was first named “father” and then became a father because he dared to trust God to do what only God could do: raise the dead to life, with a word make something out of nothing. When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn’t do but on what God said he would do. And so he was made father of a multitude of peoples. God himself said to him, “You’re going to have a big family, Abraham!”

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Just a Bit More

20 Jul

Buttermilk Falls

I have lived in the flat state of Florida for 11 years,  each year I visit NY state and have a great time.  This year, I decided to visit my Aunt in Ithaca and take a 3/4 mile hike up Buttermilk Falls.  With my three boys.  All under 6.  One was 18 months, in a backpack, on my back.  I’m not sure what I was thinking.  This was a very steep climb, my 3 year old was having a tough time, I was having a tough time.  It was a hard climb, especially with a 25 lb toddler strapped to my back.  We pushed and pushed, positive we had gone the 3/4 mile, no way 3/4 of a mile would take THIS long!  We checked our map and were sure we were close, so kept pushing.  We got to a point, checked our map again and thought maybe we had figured wrong and may have quite a bit more to go.   There was a couple there trying to figure it out too.  I decided I couldn’t push my 3 year old any more (maybe myself a bit too….)   and it looked like it might rain, we decided to turn around.

We got to the bottom of the trail and headed over to the middle of the bottom of the falls and we see the couple we had seen on the trail.  They said the bridge that crossed the waterfall was just up the trail from where we turned around and the trail that went down the opposite side of the waterfall was much more beautiful than the way up.

The Way Up

What a great lesson.  I won’t be able to make this trip for at least another year, I missed out on the best part of the hike because I didn’t push it just a bit more.

Jeremy and I have been going through a really tough time financially.  We were both getting to the point asking how long is this going to take, how bad is it going to get, a bit of frustration coming on.   We have had so much clear direction to trust God and rest in him and we know He has given Jeremy amazing talents to use, we’re just not sure of the next step.   It’s been 40+ days since he lost work.  Prior to losing about 95% of our income,  our finances had been pretty much drained for other reasons.  It’s been tough.  I read this post this morning and it hit me.   We have made it through the hardest part,  hiked up the steepest sections, been faithful. Now, we are leveling out and just around the corner is rest at the top, a cool drink and a beautiful view!   Don’t give up and take the same way back you came from!